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Monday, August 4, 2014
Aug. 4th, 2014 09:06 amTanya is a week old today and we are slowly adjusting to her presence and feeding her and rocking her to sleep and all the baby stuff. We got home on Wednesday after two nights in the hospital. My Mom, and sometimes my Dad, are here during the day and Bear and I are alone with her at night - which was very terrifying at first. Bear is back to work today - he was home all week with us.
I'm very grateful for my Mom's help because I really can't do much other than feed her and be by her side at night, because it is very, very painful to walk right now. I'm hoping it is just the stitches, which should heal in another week and not a pulled muscle or pubic pain that would require longer healing. I want to be able to pick her up myself from the crib, not just have her placed in my arms.
Postpartum, I decided, is the worst thing - worse than any pregnancy complications or even labor. Let me count the ways it sucks: 1. stitches 2. inability to really walk or lay on the side 3. trouble sleeping - I'm averaging 2-3 hours a day not because of the baby - she slept well last night but because of hip pain and that pulled muscle and/or crotch pain 4. the postpartum bleeding and all the conflicting info on what is normal and how long each color of it should last 5. swollen ankles 6. gas pains 7. hormones that make me cry all the time especially at being frustrated at my inability to do much etc, etc
Of course, on the plus side, I do have milk and can feed the baby, and she is very adorable and has the cutest expressions. I know I'll adjust - I just need to be patient for my body to heel.
I'm very grateful for my Mom's help because I really can't do much other than feed her and be by her side at night, because it is very, very painful to walk right now. I'm hoping it is just the stitches, which should heal in another week and not a pulled muscle or pubic pain that would require longer healing. I want to be able to pick her up myself from the crib, not just have her placed in my arms.
Postpartum, I decided, is the worst thing - worse than any pregnancy complications or even labor. Let me count the ways it sucks: 1. stitches 2. inability to really walk or lay on the side 3. trouble sleeping - I'm averaging 2-3 hours a day not because of the baby - she slept well last night but because of hip pain and that pulled muscle and/or crotch pain 4. the postpartum bleeding and all the conflicting info on what is normal and how long each color of it should last 5. swollen ankles 6. gas pains 7. hormones that make me cry all the time especially at being frustrated at my inability to do much etc, etc
Of course, on the plus side, I do have milk and can feed the baby, and she is very adorable and has the cutest expressions. I know I'll adjust - I just need to be patient for my body to heel.