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Thursday, May 19, 2011
May. 19th, 2011 10:44 pmI went up to University campus early this morning, and by early I mean I left the house at 6:45. I couldn’t sleep well past 5am anyway because I was going to see my Advisor today and really figure out my future. The last few years I have not really been working too hard on my dissertation. I let a million things distract me. And I was seriously thinking of just stopping, taking the masters and doing something else. But I just don’t like quitting. I took my Toronto Latin PhD exam many, many times just because I couldn’t not quit. So today I asked my Advisor if I could just have the summer. Either I get it together this summer and finish it or I’m done.
To encourage me in this venture – because I really don’t want to work on it even if it is more than half done (dissertations suck) – I am putting certain incentives in my way. I asked Advisor if I could email him every evening this summer (except for my vacation week) with the day’s progress report and if I don’t email him that he should bug me about it. Since the last thing I want is an email from the Advisor, that might help. I also got Bear to help – since we talk every night on the phone before we go to sleep, I need to tell him about daily progress if I want our nightly ritual – a definite incentive.
So this summer I need to be busy and I came up with a list of rules for myself – like limiting internet time and TV too. I really need to push myself despite my natural inclination for procrastination because the constant guilt I live under and the feeling of failure needs to go.
I also picked up the rest of the book I requested at the library – the books I will teach next semester in my “History of Law” class. I started reading “Roman Law” book by Riggsby – it is written for undergraduates and it will work really well, I’m glad I chose it and I will get a free copy too. This afternoon, I worked on Global Encounters syllabus for next semester too, with new dates and paper due dates and I started to figure out the “History of Law” syllabus too. I know this is not a priority right now but I just needed to feel like it is sorted in case I won’t have time closer to end of August.
Falafel for lunch and finishing National Geographic for May was a good lunch break too.
( Bones S6E23 )
Cross stitch: I started backstitch with dark grey. It stands out really well. I did the ball and the duck backstitch and a bit of a baby bear.
To encourage me in this venture – because I really don’t want to work on it even if it is more than half done (dissertations suck) – I am putting certain incentives in my way. I asked Advisor if I could email him every evening this summer (except for my vacation week) with the day’s progress report and if I don’t email him that he should bug me about it. Since the last thing I want is an email from the Advisor, that might help. I also got Bear to help – since we talk every night on the phone before we go to sleep, I need to tell him about daily progress if I want our nightly ritual – a definite incentive.
So this summer I need to be busy and I came up with a list of rules for myself – like limiting internet time and TV too. I really need to push myself despite my natural inclination for procrastination because the constant guilt I live under and the feeling of failure needs to go.
I also picked up the rest of the book I requested at the library – the books I will teach next semester in my “History of Law” class. I started reading “Roman Law” book by Riggsby – it is written for undergraduates and it will work really well, I’m glad I chose it and I will get a free copy too. This afternoon, I worked on Global Encounters syllabus for next semester too, with new dates and paper due dates and I started to figure out the “History of Law” syllabus too. I know this is not a priority right now but I just needed to feel like it is sorted in case I won’t have time closer to end of August.
Falafel for lunch and finishing National Geographic for May was a good lunch break too.
( Bones S6E23 )
Cross stitch: I started backstitch with dark grey. It stands out really well. I did the ball and the duck backstitch and a bit of a baby bear.